Strange week.
The internet died, but I fixed it sort of.
Felt way clever.
Went to an art exhibition opening. Crazy crazy woman there.
Spent a lot of time at home thinking I should do uni work.
Tried to get out, locked myself out of the house and had to sit in the backyard for a couple of hours.
Successfully weeded yard and uncovered some naturally occurring tomato plants.
Bought a new-second-hand washing machine.
Stood in the darkness with man I didn’t know name of an Jo watching water fill the machine at 11pm at night.
Took Ben walking several times.
Went swimming and running.
Got better at swimming.
Did my washing.
Changed my sheets. Oh the joy.
Spent a day writing lots of Spanish work.
Felt down
Felt a bit lonely.
Thanked God for the blessing of friends.
Thanked God for uniqueness and the richness people’s identities add to my life.
Considered how wafty that sounds. Didn’t mind too much.
Reflected on how that moulds me.
Felt sick.
Going to drop-in tonight.
Tried to go to Jill White exhibition with Lucy but realised it had finished. Saw a different one and had Toby’s coffee and tea afterward.
Tea was in a squashed iron pot. Held 5 cups of tea.
Got excited about Blackstump.
Re-designed my blog (not that its on the blog yet)
Asked an old woman if I could take her photo, got a no
Contentment comes from God.
Lost some contentment. Most sad.
Hope it comes back.

It just may be. It may be the day that I design my blog after these years of blogging. I really hate my template and I assured myself that it would only be temporary, but alas no, I never changed it. It’s so embarassing, mostly cause of what I study at uni. Imagine if someone saw it.

Again though, it could just as likely not be the day. There are so many things I could do in this day. And the best part is it’s only 11am. I’ve been up since 5.45am and if I do nothing more in this day, at least I achieved 14 laps of the pool by 6.30am. That’s the fastest I’ve ever done that. And 14 is the most I’ve ever done…this year. I once did 20. Once. Learning to do something you once couldn’t is totally the most liberating thing ever.

And…my red swimmers. Cate Blanchett totally wears exactly the same ones in Little Fish. Yep. And she totally doesn’t look nearly as weird in me, but she’s just the best so that’s totally good.

Saw Closer on Friday night. That was crazy. It was way good but totally too real. Totally difficult to watch and painful and moments. Some might saw it was raw although that may not say much considering I use that word to describe everything at the moment. I just love it.

I am so incredibly excited about Blackstump. I’ve already lived it ten times over in my head.

I love my church. It’s so lovely and homely and friendly and humble and real and great and earthy and sweet and challenging and inspiring and enjoyable and active and prayerful and attentive and in newtown and great for me and it runs late and has beautiful music and beautiful people and beautiful light through the stained glass windows and it’s just the best.

Since I’ve got my scanner I’m thinking about making my blog different. Or maybe just having additions. I’m thinking about making it an ephemeral blog. So I might scan something each day that I’ll probably just chuck in the bin. I’ll give it a longer lasting life. It may not be very interesting, although I’m not particularly concerned for several reasons.
I think I mainly blog because I find it an interesting way to remember my life. To me it makes more sense to document my life visually because my mind works a lot more visually and photographically than wordly. I’ve really noticed how much I have no clarity when I speak, I’m much better at diagrams and things. I always tend to want to draw it.
So I thought visual triggers might be interesting for me. And the ephemeral thing, well that’s just kind of fun. Giving life to unimportant things. Yesterday I scanned a shopping list. I was trying to make Jo and I’s task of shopping more fun by using coloured pencils and translating it into silly Spanish. I managed the fruit and vege list in Spanish but the Coles list was much harder. For things like Bush Chutney I had to write, chutney of the place with many trees.

I just begun holidays which is mildly novel and snuck up on me like a nice surprise. one lovely feature is that I don’t have mountains and mountains of work, just a relatively regularly sized pile. Which is great. Much of that is Spanish study which I am really enjoying at the moment. We have just learnt so much this semester that I am just wanting to immerse myself as much as I can. Because the more I do the more I can speak to people.

I asked at our house dinner last night 3 words to describe the story of your day’s moods. I used

Carefree
Content
Relaxed.

And I totally was it was muy bonita. Pero hoy recibi algun informacion que estuvo muy mal. This bad news I received was that I may have to work on the weekend of Blackstump. I’ve been feeling really ick (now isn’t that a nice word) all day about it because it takes away all the carefreeness and contentment of Blackstump to a more organisational stressful one.

I am really hoping I don’t have to. So much. It’s put a downer to my hols.

I can’t believe that the Da Vinci Code is taking up 2 coms of my bookshelf. It’s such special space that is being so horribly wasted.

I go distracted by a bookshop today. A particularly bad one too. Basement Books which is really cheap. They had heaps of good books today and I bought 4 without planning it. They all are either really good (for example, Girl with a Pearl Earring) or they are going to be really good and I got them all for $26. What a bargain.

I’ve got the most fangle dangle scanner about. It’s pretty nift. It’s pretty monstery. But that’s the price you have to pay to scan 12 negs at once. It’s sad, yesterday morning I would have loved a scanner, now I have no need for it particularly. Not that it won’t come, but I have no desperate need this second.
What’s nice also is that I just got Photoshop Elements for free with it. I’m not sure how much more goodness it has than Photoshop, but I installed it anyway. Hopefully it will be of use to me.

And. I bought some red swimmers today so I don’t have to wear my falling apart ones to the pool anymore. I will miss looking like a dag, but I have new fears that red may draw attention to my bad swimming abilities. Anyway, at least the red will help me swim faster.

I love handing in assessments, it makes me happy. It also makes me so much closer to the end of term.

I have to do a photo essay on my street. I think it will be fun and scary. I have to take photos of people.

As a reward for going swimmers shopping, I am going to have some tea.

I wonder if I’ll marry an architect? I wondered that today, amongst other things I assume.