23 June 2005
big. big. small.
After The biggest week of my life I am finding it slightly strange coming back into the real world of ordinary or I don’t even know, I am so unaware of my surroundings that I don’t even know what’s going on. But, I do know that today is my first day of rest and I am enjoying my time so far. I went to Croydon Cafe this morning for breakfast and read the chapter in Richard Foster’s book on Prayer about Praying the Ordinary (on recommendation of Jo after she did just the same thing last week), and I know why she thought I’d like it - I did. But it was really nice, it helps me bring big things in my life back to the roots, which is where I actually do like to be at. And my brain started having ideas and it was really nice.
I’ve felt so many emotions in the past week or something and it’s strange not being in that “week” anymore, because it is no longer the significant time, and the acknowledgement of that around you begins to disappear and you suddenly get caught up in your small little life again, needing to hold onto some moment of significance but finding it pretty hard.
There is too much for me to say that I just can’t say anything, and for some reason I feel like this time has had enough speaking in words, it needs to be explored in other ways. Perhaps I’ll go and draw some pictures. Perhaps do some washing to the glory of God. Begin to readjust to normality. Spend some time alone and…
listen to all my new CD’s!!! I love new CD’s I haven’t got any for ages…but birthday’s are good for such things.
By the time I recognise this moment, this moment wil be gone
- John Mayer