Wow its been a long time since I have properly acquainted myself with my blog. I have been journalling quite a bit. I like it. Really getting into it. A side of me I have never seen before.
I am still assimilating my changes from the road trip. But this week has been a week of astoundment to how blessed I am. So blessed to have such amazing people in my world. So blessed to be being let free of fear from talking slightly. So blessed to be able to go on a road trip around Australia for two weeks. So blessed to have such interesting, commited and loving friends…
The road trip was challenging but really a very big highlight of one of my nine holidays this year. I will remember for many many years to come I think. I learnt a lot about others, and more about myself. And I learnt heaps about others. All nine people on the trip are such amazingly beautiful people. So easy to be around and easy going. I found group dynamics challenging because its really easy to feel undervalued in group contexts…I thought about it thought and then thought hey, what am I doing to show the group how valued they are in my eyes..not much, so that was humbling eh. Not being in control of dynamics is bizarre, but I think it may all be part of what I’m learning lately. To sit contently with things that are out of my control…or that are too big for me to comprehend. A hard one but a goodie. I giggle at myself.
I pretty much danced for two weeks straight. It’s strange in my mind when I think of the road trip I picture me dancing round like an idiot and having oh so much joy in my heart and a time where I felt totally at ease to be myself. So although its not deep, that was another important thing for me to learn. To be content with experience and stillness as opposed to the analytical conversations I place so much value on. Not that I don’t love them, but just enjoying experience has been really significant for me. And well, I’m glad I’ve just experienced so many beautiful experiences with the people I did and God. It was pretty special. And I really look forward to experiencing special times with many more people and with the same again and of course with God.

This entry was posted on Thursday, January 20th, 2005 at 3:39 pm.