I have neglected the blog for several days. Partly because I don’t know what to write and most of my thoughts the past few days have really been internal…and there are so many things that I wouldn’t know how to say. Most of them have been about uni and uni work and how inadequate I feel. I’m finding it so hard at the moment that its not enjoyable. I had a better day today though because Becky helped me with some ideas which was nice. I keep debating in my head too the unis ideas of design and I feel like I’m the odd one out. The problem is, when someone doesn’t understand the idea you are talking about…there is no possible way to explain it, and it just leaves you feeling although maybe you were wrong all along. I wish lecturers showed us more often how they were wrong. It would help make them human, and that there ideas aren’t always the best. But sometimes they might not get something a student does and then the student has to suffer the bad marks because the lecturer didn’t understand.
This is my problem actually the last few days all my thoughts have been so vague and not really anything concrete just ideas iin passing that I don’t know what i’m thinking. Basically, I’ve been feeling a little upset about uni work and just not knowing where on earth to go or why I can’t think of anything good.
AHHHH. A holiday will be nice. Next Thursday here I come…I’ve been thinking about mowing the lawns. Although strictly, we aren’t meant to have work to do in these holidays I have so much work to do in my time off its stupid. Why can’t they give us a proper holiday.
One thing I have started to learn is that there is a point where you have to say no more time, even if it does mean your marks will suffer. Because there simply isn’t a day in the week when I feel like I can do something other than work for uni. That aint good. I need a me day.

This entry was posted on Friday, April 2nd, 2004 at 5:58 pm.